Shame by Anchal Jain

by Anchal Jain

Anchal Jain was given the title of Resilient Human Being by her supporters when she was on the path of  her healing journey. She volunteers with New Jersey Bergen County Job Center to empower people to live their best, fulfilling lives. She also provides individual coaching, training sessions, and strategic planning consulting to help both individual survivors and organizations build resilience.  She is a passionate advocate who believes there is growth in conflict and survivors are the bridge to creating a new healthy culture in our society. Her passion to empower survivors led her to enroll at the YWCA tech lab program. Now she is a consultant in digital transformation and a software engineer building applications for survivors of human trafficking.

Why is it so difficult to say the truth, 

So what if they don't believe me, 

Why can't I trust myself, when I am the one who experienced it? 

Why does the feeling of rejection feel bigger than me? 

Why do I still want to belong between the people who sold me? 

Why do I have to sell my soul or hide it? 

Why can't I just be. 

Where can I reside, when shame lives deep inside of me, 

I don't want to be me, so who am I trying to be? 

I had enough of Shame, 

It tastes bitter, sour to me and sweet for those who surround me. 

It stuck like a glue and blended in my veins; 

It stretched out in my world, 

leaving no space. 

Shame, What does it mean to (be) me?